It was 2007, a normal afternoon, and I was watching video's on YouTube. I do not really remember what I was looking for, all I know is that I started to post my own video's on YouTube and started to click on other people's videos that caught my attention. I saw a little thumbnail image with a title about 2012 above it. I was interested in many things, including 2012, so I clicked. The video started with what I thought was a 12 year old little boy, breathing in deeply and then starting to speak. I first thought it was a little kid and his friends having fun together, but I kept on listening out of curiosity. And the more words I heard coming out of the persons mouth, the more I was impressed with the common sense of it. It was about that 2012, nothing will change and that we have to be the change in all moments not depending on any date or prediction.
There was a link to this "desteni" website, which I had no clue about what it was, but I decided to go there and introduce myself. Because I am pretty fast in introducing myself and jumping into discussions online, because I was always interested in finding out more. I had been searching for "the truth" for a long time, and felt out of place in this world. I used to look out of the window to the stars and cry because I felt like my life was not on this planet, but somewhere on another planet. Like I was feeling homesick. Also I was depressed a lot about the state of the world, and about who I had become, about my own imperfections, my frustrations, my vanity, my self pity... I had no clue what to do about the world, because all I wanted was for all the abuse to end. But all I saw was hate, and thousands of believes battling against each other, and people going into fake relationships and only caring about sex, animal abuse, poverty and starvation etc... Thinking about it every single day made me ill.
On the desteni forum I found all kinds of topics about these issues, and that really sparked my curiosity. I wanted to find out everything they had to say about it. Not that I was going to believe it, but I was open for it, because I don’t know everything. The messages often came back to a common sense point that requires no believe what so ever. It only requires you to be self-honest and face yourself in brutal honesty. And I like that. I started to learn how to be honest to myself without hurting myself and going into depression. To face my own issues and to overcome them, to not let them affect or influence me, and to stop the patterns programmed within me. I learned to overcome my fears about my self-image and others. Because if we do not change the things within our selves that cause friction on a large scale, problems will keep arising, inequality will keep arising. So I found it very important to do this, for myself and for everything else. Because the desteni message was also focused on changing the world situations, which was exactly what I wanted. And we have compiled this into a FAQ about the Equal money system that is very handy for people who are just getting to know it.
Right now it is 2012 and I have not been depressed in years, I have faced some of the most difficult fears that I had, and the desteni message is stronger than ever. We are growing and launching various projects to be able to have more impact. One of them is publishing our writing, to bring in funds that can move us forward within this system to change it. One cool read is the :
Slowly but surely more people hear the message and join in, so that we together can move forward. And we will never stop, because we do not depend on hope or a feeling to move us. And we stand together to bring about a new system, the Equal Money system, to have a foundation of equality for all beings on Earth. This is our work in progress, which everyone can join who is willing.